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a most horrible day at work has forced me to end up blogging this down, although i didn't really have the mood to blog today. and as a result of the shit that happened in the office today, now my whole day today stinks. totally. oh i mean yesterday (24/08).

so lets see, i go into the office in the morning on time rather than late, which is what i usually end up doing because i can't haul my lazy ass off my bed. so then here i am doing my work and chatting online when my boss has to come bug me.
he goes like, hey william, have you finished the work i asked you to do? so i go like, i'm doing it now, sir. then he says why still havent finish? i thought you've been doing it for so long already? so i wanna tell him that its precisely because he keeps asking me to modify the damn worksheet that i can never get to complete it because its so freaking troublesome with thousands of cells linked to one another by formulae which stretches over 10 items in each cell. but i choose to just shut up because i've had enough and i really dun wanna talk anymore. so i go on doing the work and then later in the afternoon when i think i've finally got what he wants, i show it to him.
he goes why this one like that? i thought the formula should be like that .. blahblah.. if you want the damn formula the way you want, just do the damn thing yourself you prick! fuck. so there i was just sucking my thumb because i don't wanna do time in detention for insubordination or whatever crap that is.

and here's the big shit.
ten minutes later, an officer comes in and announces, "hey, new rule guys. from now on, NSFs cannot use the internet access, only Regulars can. so those with network cards, please stop using them. you're only allowed to use during lunch hour from 12 to 1 and during the tea-breaks."

dumbfounded.

so my boss asks why, and listen to this.
the officer goes "oh there was this attachee in the other side that suddenly broke down n cried and all. someone asked him what was wrong and he said his gf wanted to break up with him blahblahblah.. and so his superior asks him how he knows this, and you know what this joker said? oh we were talking on icq just now and she told me."

now, which goddamnfuckersonofabitchbrainlessvegetablespermhead would say something like that? wtf man, i swear i will kill that guy if i know who it is. so his superior had to let him take urgent leave this afternoon to go settle his "domestic problems". talk about ridiculous. and so there, the biggest bomb today. no more internet usage for me unless its strictly for work or its during lunchtime, which makes totally no sense because i would be out for lunch. damn fuckingsonofabitchasshole that guy i tell you. he's just a freaking private and i'm so gonna knock him down some shit if i see him around and i dont give a damn if he has a freaking excuse status.
so now i cant even fucking insert my network card into my laptop. and i wish i had the money to buy a centrino processor laptop with inbuilt wireless LAN but i dont have the money to change laptop right now as much as internet means to me. now my office work isnt much better than being in a combat unit. fuck.

and to make things worse, now i'm at home and my internet wireless lan has something wrong, my laptop disconnects and connects in 10 second intervals. connect, disconnect, connect, disconnect etc. its freaking jamming up my laptop and making my mp3s skip because of the change in settings each time it connects/disconnects. and i am honestly getting so damn pissed off with all this shit.

fuck fuck fuck you fucking chao private whoever the goddamnhellshit you are

super supper

just came back from lunch with my bosses, went to west coast hawker centre and had mutton soup and rojak. feeling so wonderfully satisfied now. but now, since i'm feeling so very bored in the office with only mundane stuff to do, i have decided to do this entry, and it shall revolve around my favorite meal of the day.

supper.

and to those of you who are gonna tell me that fatty and high-calorie foods should not be taken as supper before going to bed, here's what i say to that, and to you : screw that, and screw you.

i happen to believe that happiness is the ultimate goal/objective of anything that we do in life. why do we wanna work hard to earn more money and buy more things? so that we can be happy with what we've bought. why do we like to do the things we enjoy? because we are happy doing it. why do we detest having to do the things we dislike? it makes us unhappy, that's why.

so, i say that i like to eat all these yummylicious though unhealthy fatty food for supper because this way, i can go to bed happy and have nice pleasant dreams of more yummy food.

* for those who still do not know, i am somewhat of a self-proclaimed food addict/critic and my life pretty much revolves around food, thus contributing to my tubby frame(view photo at the side; yes that grey thing in red underwear is me)

1. roti prata
i don't know what the world would be like without this wonderful indian bread thingy, and i don't think i ever want to. partnered with delicious high quality curry, it is the most amazing late night supper you can have.

2. chicken murtabak
a close substitute for roti prata, and sometimes i prefer it to prata esp. when i'm hungrier than usual since there's meat filling within the layers of crispy bread. also nicer when paired with some hot curry.

3. milo dinosaur
the drink to go along with the 2 abovementioned foods to make your supper a complete satisfaction. yummy ice cold milo topped off with milo flakes and powder. there is also an upgrade option available to upgrade the dinosaur to godzilla.

4. chicken rice
remembering that we ought to be fair to other ethnic groups' foods, i cannot list only all my favorite malay/indian foods, so here is the traditional hainanese chicken rice which i often gobble down so quickly that i don't even realise i had indigestion. silky smooth white chicken in a light soya sauce with fragrant chicken oily rice and some chilli sauce. beware - this dish is easily overeaten in large amounts.

having typed this, now i'm getting hungry.. time to drop by the canteen for some deep friend crispy chicken wings =)

revelation

most interesting turn of events recently has now left me in the unenviable position of having to rummage through the disorganized thoughts in my head, and to filter the important considerations from the irrelevant ones. it's a big, even humongous change in my present life and lifestyle - those of you who know about it, you know; those who don't, well, you'll get to hear about it soon enough.
it's also interesting how my mind has evolved over the past months, from one of everlasting pessimism and dejection to one of random hope and "i'll let fate decide what it has in store for me" mindset. don't know if this is good, but i know i sure don't like pessimism - it's freaking irritating. had enough of it.

and so, with certain relation to all this, i have come to a conclusion about myself, my personality and my attitude. that i am better off being friends with anyone, than getting involved in any greater personal capacity with them. because of my character, my personality, whatever - i don't know. i've had a fair share of learning experiences over the last couple of years, and these stepping stones have all taught me a great deal, which has resulted in my deeper thinking as i pen down this entry. partially also because i don't feel like doing the work i have been assigned in camp now; feeling very lazy right now.

moreover, plans of going overseas to study in melbourne are in the works, and its prob gonna be in june 05, so to start anything now would simply be stupid and reckless because im not one of those who believe that a long-distance relationship can actually work out in the long run. for a while, probably, but definitely not for the long term.

so i guess i'm better off staying as friends with those that i'm closer to, rather than to delve into anything more and ruin the friendship in the end. it's me, just me, my character; it's the way i am. take it or leave it.

"A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same."
-Elbert Hubbard

stuff

ah.

fatigue

been having so many late nights recently, never realised my body/system could endure this kinda torture. maybe that's why i embody the "ren : endure/tolerate" aspect of life. hahaha how corny.



found this one quite nice, but i think it's gonna be pretty hard to tattoo on coz there's a shadow-like effect and the endure in english strikethrough also seems a little weird. but at least i seem to be finding nicer things nowadays, hopefully this trend can carry on so i can finally discover a dream design to etch onto my body.

back to what i was saying, i've been sleeping at 2+/3+ am everyday since my relatives frm hk came down to visit, been busy having late dinners/suppers and most recently, late mahjong sessions. i'm a self-confessed mahjong addict. and my dad gave me 350 bucks to settle entertaining my cousin n his friend, and guesw how much i spent in total? a whopping $650. which i am obviously going to claim from my dad because it isnt really my personal expenditure, but getting to eat wonderful food for 3 days in a row is really a treat i've been longing for. newton, boon tong kee, nydc, satay club - my dream meals in quick succession.
worked the whole weekend away too, meaning i got very very little sleep and rest this whole weekend which wasnt that much of a weekend to me. only non-work related was going down to simlim to get computer parts to assemble a new machine for elsie's mom. also had a stupid mobilisation exercise on saturday, burning away the whole afternoon. the rest of the weekend hours were spent at work at egames. oh well. what a weekend.
and thus, i have decided to take mc today, no energy to go to camp, but i still have to do my boss' work at home and send it to him later. bah.
i'm seriously lacking in brain juice, need lunch now to refill my energy or i'm gonna be a lifeless shit the rest of today sitting here staring at a 14 inch screen in complete disarray.

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kimmie: hey dont fret yea, its just normal monday blues. nobody likes mondays, we're all just like garfield the fat cat. can't do much since ure @ work but here's a little smthg hopefully can bring a smile to ur face deviating frm a moody state. just a couple more hours and it'll all fly by. hang in there.

glut is my name

take note: glut is now my middle name, and no it's not slut.
allow me to enlighten you further on my recent food ravings - my cousin and his pal came down frm hk so me and my gf brought them on an eating induction course.

sunday

lunch at marche (12pm) - ate a cheese sausage rosti, horribly-burnt chicken breast, root beer. there wasn't time for dessert.

afternoon tea at nydc @ wheelock (4pm) - between 4 of us, we basically had e=mc squared, mango tango float, iced mocha elephanccino, earl grey tea, grandma goes nuts mudpie, times square mudpie, some oreo-thingy mudpie.

dinner at satay club @ clarke quay (8pm) - us 4 ate about 50 sticks of satay, 3 portions of sting ray, 1 portion of sambal sotong, 1 chicken murtabak and couple of beers.

takeaway supper at al-azhar @ bkt tmh (midnight) - each had one egg prata, one plain prata, and a milo dinosaur.

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monday

lunch at yoshinoya @ harbourfront (1pm)- ate chicken/beef value/complete meals. nothing very unusual there.

dinner at boon tong kee @ river valley (7pm) - 4 of us shared a total of 1.5 white chicken, 1 plate of beansprout, 1 plate of fried tofu, plates and plates of rice (I had 3 plates).

dessert at nydc @ holland (9pm) - us 4 shared mango tango float, e=mc squared, iced manhattan mocha, diet pepsi, the spy who loved me sundae, irish cream mudpie, some brownie thingy with icecream on top.

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now you know why i'm now known as "glut will" or "tubby will".

but you can't fault me; you guys should know how wonderfully delicious and addictive nydc stuff is. so it's not my fault for getting so tubby =)
and on tonight's menu is either newton hawker or seoul garden...
god save the tubby...

friday blues

it's a poofish day today. normally people get monday blues and all, and friday is normally a happy day since the weekend is nearing. but i dunno what's wrong with me today, having bad friday blues. i know the weekend is coming, but nothing to really look forward to and been having late nights the past 2 weeks, only climbing into bed at 1+ or 2 each night until i couldn't take it anymore, had to sleep at midnight yest.

really doesn't help that i came into the office this morning and the damn internet isn't working, couldn't get online and start my aimless daily surfing. had a meeting too, just got arrowed a new big huge project to complete by end august, damn stressful stuff. endless hours of analyzing numerical data and having to make projections for new numbers. though i'm only a pathetic NSF, i seem to be doing more creditable work than regulars. i think i should demand overtime pay.

had a national day observance ceremony in the theatrette earlier, i must say, now i know the real perks of being in a service HQ rather than in some screwed up combat unit. no parades, no shiny boots, no haircut, no marching drills. just have to sit there and listen to some nonsense speech and sing the national anthem and say the national pledge. both of which, i shall now admit, i have totally completely forgotten. not that i'm ashamed of it though - never was all that patriotic to begin with.

just a small shoutout to my old pals in 1st commando battalion, 5th company, who will be involved in the marchpast as the guard of honour this coming monday. though i don't don a red beret like them, i still sense the deserving pride. for honour and glory, as the motto for commandos says. strike to silence.

i need coffee.

need opinions

Need some opinions for a new tattoo i wanna get, prob on my back. thinking of a couple of things but it must center around my personal motto of inner calm. got a couple of chinese wordings here. tell me what you think, or recommend me new stuff if you've better ideas.




endure



inner strength



inner peace, but it's a little long



meditative zen



it's a ren but not very nice

i can't bloody seem to find a nice, not so bland-looking ren picture anywhere on the web and i'm hunting for one. if anyone knows where to get it, pls drop me a note.

random crap

i'm feeling bored so here's some random stuff for you twits to look through, just to pass the time. i'm bored. very bored. someone please entertain me.





my favorite newspaper cutting given by my dear elsie which i even bothered to laminate - dunno if can read the little wordings but i think you can infer as much from the bold title.





my favorite doggie, cute and furry with red underwear. his name is SuperDog =) and i like him very much. he's my sleeping partner(sorry dear, u lost to him =X). lol.





and finally, by popular demand, a horribly self-taken one-handed photo with a 2 megapix camera of my one and only puny pathetic tattoo. i think you should be able to tell its on my right upper arm. kim/jo: there. now are you 2 bums satisfied? =P
for those ignorant ficks, it's a chinese character "ren" which in literal terms means to tolerate/bear. the more inherent meaning is inner peace/inner calm, thus my life motto since a tattoo can't really be easily erased so i'm keeping it for life, with more to come soon. so if you didn't know, that's how i got my life motto. nuff said.

a man's room describes what he's like?

Now thanks to some help from jaslyn I have learnt the existence of online photo albums that host for free! wow, such a shock, i didn't even know they existed, much less that they're free. haha, and to think i thought i was a techwhizz. well then, so here I am pretty much trying to experiment with the photoblogging thingy, and i have decided to give you all a treat into my private life with pictures of my room!! yes yes what personal sharing i am offering you peons now. live in the honour and glory of knowing the layout of my pathetic room. enjoy the pics and don't forget to answer the question in the entry title.

*oops i think i resized the photos too small.

overview of my room




items(L to R): Mahjong table, extra chairs for mahjong players, stupidandidiotic floor-mounted air-con which is so not-cold, TV that is quite spoilt already, DVD/VCD player and disc rack




items: table with my 6-yr old cranky sony hi-fi set, HP laserjet dunno what model number, a very pathetic collection of cds below




items: computer CPU (Dell sucks), HP deskjet dunno what model also, computer monitor (dell sucks even more), laptop on my study desk, bunch of books and filing area to make it look not-so-empty, 2 lousy chairs that can't support my weight



items: 2 chest of drawers for all kinda nonsense, my pathetic single bed which is meant to collect dust because i dont sleep on it, wall full of nonsense and a low shelf with more nonsense




here you can see my interesting bookshelf which I shall zoom in on later so you can see why its so interesting




an extra sofa bed for my guests who stay over for mahjong or what nonsense, my favorite big blue comfy chair for reading purposes with a matching leg rest. shiok. can also see the back of the old sofa for resting my tired body after a day's work and normally used as a holding area for all sorts of nonsense i throw on it




zoom in on the wall posters. as you can see, i am crazy about the chinese character "ren" - meaning tolerate/inner calm. my life motto. the word of my life




bookshelf part 1: squint a bit and you'll see I am a BIG fan of Tom Clancy and Jeffrey Archer. Michael Crichton is only mediocre. I aspire to complete Clancy and Archer collections by end of this year




bookshelf Part 2: You can see that I am an even bigger fan of Star Wars Books. I similarly aspire to have the entire complete collection of all Star Wars novelizations by end of my life. i still have a lot of time to go. star wars is the best




bookshelf Part 3: I am also an avid John Grisham fan. also aspire to complete his collection of all books by end of this year