choices

out of sight, out of mind

absence makes the heart grow fonder

of the two, which holds true?

realization

original:
time flies when you're enjoying yourself.

my edit:
time really flies when you're really enjoying yourself.

realization hits me.

the pure honesty of the truth.

it came and gone.

in the blink of an eye.

my whole weekend.

it came and now, it's all gone.

but it doesn't matter.

because i'm happy.

really happy.

none

with particular reference to the previous entry, damn i am weak. because i succumbed to peer pressure and those tweebs asked me down to zouk anyway. i was so damn shacked out but in the end i still went. oh wow why am i not surprised. sigh.
didn't do much, didn't drink much either. prob cos we're all broke as hell and desperately looking for jobs aka moonlighting opportunities.

was at indoor stadium doing linesman duty earlier in the day and saw some good players/games, but then again i'm not really a badminton afficionado so i didn't bother with the whole get-their-autograph thing. met kim at work after that then spent some time with her and sent her back. rushed home to meet the tweebs as i mentioned earlier.

and now i am swearing off clubbing for at least a week. because i am broke. because i am dead tired. because i have no more mood to club. because i am getting fatter by each night with all that liquor and beer. so please for heaven's sake don't ask me anymore. thank you.

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some things are going chummy chum chum while others aren't but oh well that's what life is all about i suppose. give and take, as they say, you can't have everything. but that's literally. figuratively, we could actually have everything, it just depends on what you term as 'everything' which differs btwn individuals. bah.

long day ahead but i cant afford to slp now cos i know i wont be able to get up again if i do knock out. sigh. someone should invent rest pills or smthg, like after downing the pills you'd feel totally revitalised and full of energy which equates to 8 solid hours of sleep.

back

back frm hk yesterday evening. rushed home to wash up and all then went down to meet kim n gail in town. walked a bit with them then i went over to see clem while he was working at monster. had a quick dinner with him then went back to nydc with the two mutts for dessert. urgh. i am how blimpish already and i still have to devour all these sinful sugar-enriched composites. strolled a lil bit more in borders and i realise how many new books are out since i haven't been there in quite a while. should i start the whole sit-down-at-borders-like-a-cheapo-and-read-books-for-free thingy? i think my dad would mutilate me if i raked up another $200 book-shopping bill. walked around aimlessly then sent kim back home after that. took the most enviable mrt ride from tampines back to clementi again. i have discovered thru these past few weeks that the duration of travel can range from 44 mins to 49 mins. hmmm.
got home ard midnight plus.

didnt do much in hk, mainly bought gifts for friends only. and by god, i hope they're suitable or i'd just crash haha.

it's really so interesting that the minute i get back, pple start msging me on msn "hey so can u go this wed since u werent there on fri?" and stuff like that. sheesh. makes me sound like some clubbing animal that can bring his owners in. gawd.
but oh well, i guess its quite well known that i generally can't say no to requests from friends. unless it's really something inexorably retarded.

but no. i may not be free on wed night. i have other plans. haha. suck it up fellas.

simple contentment

pretty contented with the way things are generally nowadays, kinda rediscovered my touch to smile and laugh a lot haha.

after training hard on wednesday, went down to phuture with clem des zo andrew edwin and kim & gail joined us later on. it was so freaking packed coz it was a public holiday eve and a wednesday.. i have never ever seen it so fucking packed before.. even the slope leading to the entrances were swarmed with a million people.
got there just in time to get the table, then had to be a lil thickskinned to get arun (floor manager) to help get the others thru the crowd and in first.. sat down and drank and talked with her before the rest came in and had interesting conversations about social networking, life skills and the such (alicia, once again i owe you).. drank like mad men, jug after jug, mug after mug.. the whole table was filled with tiger mugs and jugs other than kim & gail's multiple martinis haha.
danced a whole lot and stayed till closing, which hasn't been done in a really long while. had loads of fun doing gay dirty dancing with des n zo haha.. you should have seen the look on the faces of the people on the adjacent tables hahaha.. but in any case it was really great fun with everyone there, so thanks everyone =)

woke up on thurs to a dimsum brunch with kim n gail at crystal jade holland v , then went down to suntec with kim to play nanny for her cousin to watch shark tale.. was a pretty hilarious show too haha.. walked around for a bit aimlessly then her cousin left for home.. went on to haagen daz at tangs for some sinful sugarstuffs then bussed back with her to tampines. spent some time with her since i'm leaving for hk later on then sent her home. cabbed home in a rush, changed, grabbed the presents and went down to andrea's place for her bday party. smoked and dranked like a mad kid with the usual gang again (sorry kim.. xP), had loads of bbq food, played couple rounds of mahjong and went for a spin in des's car. quite shacked out so came home courtesy of desmo limo services haha.

and now here i am typing this with half-lidded eyes, havent started packing my luggage at all for a flight that leaves at 8am in the morning.. i'll be in hk for a couple of days till monday and no i am not bringing along my hp so pls dont call or msg me stupid things like "help me buy back roast goose" and whatever other shit there is.

i'll prob bring my laptop along so if anyting ,just drop me an email and i'll prob check it. =)

bitchings

i need to bitch badly. it's boiling inside of me and it wont go away damn it. it's been there for a couple of days now and it's still here.

ever feel like things that you want done, can't be done because of factors that aren't within your control? that feeling of helplessness, knowing that no matter how much you do or try, it's not gonna change anything at all because it simply can't be altered.

it feels like shit really. feels drop dead f*cked up.

especially after considerations have been thought of and decisions have been made.

and yet that final decision cannot be realised because of external factors that hinder its very existence.

fuck.

shack

woohoo i am so freaking tired but so freaking happy so i guess the tiredness doesn't kick in at all, or at least not yet haha.

took the morning off on friday so that i could escape muster parade (and yes i am already excused boots and prolonged standing haha) and so i slept till about noon. which means that in the 2 days i have slept a total of 15 hours. 7pm - 10pm on thurs night and 3am - 12 noon on friday so 15 hours! caught up on much needed sleep yay.
went to camp for training in the afternoon and shacked myself out, since i felt i had enough rest the past 2 days, but that was a lack of vision on my part, as i will explain later below.

rushed back from training then to jelita to buy timtams for kim (all girls like timtams i think; its a girl thing) then sped down to pasir ris downtown east costa sands resort to accompany her to play nanny coz her younger cousin was having a chalet. actually spent most of the time walking around the place because the solitary room was so overcrowded with little 12-yr-old kiddos running around playing xbox and card games. and it really didn't help that our next-door neighbours were a bunch of underaged-smoking genuine heartland ahbengs.

walked around the chalet area until we got so freaking bored and tired.. barely slept the whole night -sigh- had early macs breakfast at 630am then went to escape for the rest of the day. rode rides like a gazillion times over and got wet because kimmie wanted to sabo me =( .. and i think i fell sick too coz they forced me to take some windy ride when i was still all drenched and i was so freaking cold. spent a total of 10 solid hours there before we finally left. and yes for those that are interested, i do have a tan now. i'm brown on my arms, below the elbow. which is so fugly, i really should have worn a singlet.

took couple of bus rides to send kim and her cousin back to her cousin's place, said hi to evan then i took bus all the way back to bkt tmh and then home. and no my day is still not over.

rushed a shower and cabbed to town to meet clem n des for some shit at chinablack. tip: never go drinking on an empty stomach because it feels horrible. notice i didn't mention anything about food after breakfast on sat morning... so then decided to bug off ard 1+ coz it was getting boring. went on down to pre rouge to meet chris sam andrea n yiqi.. had a couple of drinks before going to supper at glutton's square with clem. ate loads of unhealthy food like bbq chix wings and char kway teow and longan drinks. came home and totally crashed out with severe eyebags.

woke up this morning with a mild hangover.. kim was my alarm clock of the day, calling at 11+ to talk but oh well it's nice to have pleasant sounding alarm clocks in place of the usual beepbeepbeep crap =) .. talked for quite a while before clem called and made plans to go swimming.. took a short dip then lunch at american club and i couldn't finish my portion for the first time.. it was only fish n chips.. i think i am really on the way to losing weight yay (oh who am i bluffing).. went down with sam jas des clem to shop for andrea's upcoming bday gift and haha it is quite funny how we pick nonsense presents haha. went down to work after that then now just finished watching man utd draw at home to man city with des n clem (damn it).

time to sleep, since as i've mentioned earlier, i have a severe lack of rest. thankfully i've training tmr morning and not work in camp or i'll prob just faint or smth.
freaking no more morning msn sessions with pple like kim, sam n all =(

ladeedah

tuesday was pretty uneventful, save for kim coming down to cine to find me @ work and take some unhealthy passive smoking while i fagged away haha. (but thx really kim, work was damn sian b4 u came down)

slacked at camp on wed with training then rushed home to sleep. totally crashed out after i showered because i only slept 4 hrs in the last 48. got up at 930 to eat dinner then went down to holland v in the hope of drinking some. unfortunately everywhere was closed, and andrea wanted to drink. ended up buying drinks from 7-11, taking the unfinished bottle of absolut vodka from my cupboard and went down to kap with des, clem, sam and andrea for drinks, smokes, peanuts and crapping. left around 3+ to come home to watch the match with clem. kept knocking out on the massive couch downstairs but the match was well worth the time. finally turned in at 545 and got up at 7. went to camp, only for my boss to tell me he's on mc today and asked me to go home also since there's nothing for me to do in camp. that was at 8.10am. why oh why can't he just call me half an hour earlier then i could sleep the whole morning away. argh.

rested at home for a bit, then went out to meet kim for lunch earlier on. walked around a bit before sending her back to work after lunch hour. and the rain is fucking pouring now so i'm stuck at home for the better part of the evening i guess. and i wanna sleep. rain is drowsy.
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just smthg interesting to ponder, chatting with kim:

kimmm. says:
thank goodness for msn

will : ¾ stoned says:
lol

kimmm. says:
can u imagine if we worked in the 80s or early 90s?

kimmm. says:
haha

kimmm. says:
we wldnt even have internet!

will : ¾ stoned says:
hahaha

will : ¾ stoned says:
we'd use telegrams

will : ¾ stoned says:
to chat

kimmm. says:
.......

kimmm. says:
but it's not instant

kimmm. says:
and we wldnt have hps

will : ¾ stoned says:
lol i know.

kimmm. says:
and our PCs wld be those huge kinds

i wonder.. hmmm no internet, big PCs and no HPs. how to survive? i'd sooner kill myself haha.

bullshit

i'm bored as hell at work. tired, falling sick, bruised and battered. fuck.

take a look.



and then..



i dont know why i just put that up since i'm a guy damn it.