havent updated in quite a while, and all of a sudden, the change of events that have occurred now leave me in the unenviable position with an abundance of time. i know most people would enjoy having loads of time on their hands, but not in my case, for i lie stranded on my little island in solitude, something i am unaccustomed to.
the past two months of november and december have been.. wonderful, and that would be an understatement. a fair share of ups as well as downs, but at the end of it all, it was really nothing short of superb. the holidays, the free days at home, meeting up with all the friends for all sorts of occasions, even celebrating xmas at work was great fun.
on a more personal note, a certain chapter of my book called life has gone past and turned over. not entirely though, for this chapter does not end here; it is merely put on hold till a later time when its contents can be filled with glee and joy once again. it was not written for long, but it was noted down with great depth and emotions. the irony of it is my fear to reopen this incomplete chapter at any date later than today, for there's really no saying how it may make me feel. i believe this is called uncertainty, and is what i will face everyday from now on.
and as such, my new year resolution for year 2005 is to persevere with greater resolve in the things that matter a lot to me.
resolve being the key word. this is rather general that encapsulates most things like completing my tertiary education, completing ns in one piece and such, fortifying the friendships that define my livelihood etc. but for one item in particular, the resolve to have faith and belief despite the unnerving uncertainty, that if things are meant to turn out well then they simply would, regardless of circumstances and constraints.
forgive my disorganised blabbering, if you don't like it, don't read on. i happen to be very much in the mood for reflections and such; emotional turmoil growing within me. as such, i offer short notes to those who have made my last 2 months that much more enjoyable.
in chronological order :
to my army colleagues that went to hk with me in mid nov: hope i managed to successfully show you around my other and more prized homeland, and needless to say, it was enjoyable being with you before i am released from the clutches of the singapore government in upcoming march. thanks for being there.
to my bunch of girlfriends sam jas andrea and clem who went bangkok with me in end nov: shopping was good, food was great, the company was the best. nothing short of ecstacy during the trip, with the late nights drinking cheap thai beer and smoking away (only for sam haha), the wrestling/massage sessions we had late at night which had me upended in btwn the beds, the lovely cap which now lies on my privileged bed haha, and many more memories never to forget. lets go someplace again sometime soon ok? love you all to bits.
to my parents who went to hk & phuket (no i didnt die in the tsunami) with me: umm my parents dont read blogs so .......
to the hot chicks gail kim jo shimei who went to kl with me just last week: next time we go on any holiday like this, bring another guy please. it is torturous looking out for just one or two girls, much less four of you! lol j/k lar, but truthfully, the shopping was a blast as was the food. and our little private nye talk-nonsense session at cpk, well, it was simply fab. laughing my ass off so hard to all the "what if" and "would u rather" questions ranging from beastiality to apples and oranges. and who can forget the midnight mahjong sessions where you all have finally learnt the proper rules of the game. all in all, it was lovely and i would give anything to go with you bunch of twizzards anytime again.
to my few closest friends (you know who you are): thanks for everything, not only the past 2 months but also for the entire year and more. friends are what keep me going and you know that, so appreciation is due and shall be dealt generously. and for the past week or so that i've been tied up in personal doings that i didnt call u guys out, thanks for understanding.
to a particular one kimberly who should be on flight UA 896 to chicago right now: i dont think i have to tell you how hard things will be, but that doesnt mean it cannot be attempted, since we've pulled thru certain recent ordeals hand-in-hand already. the duration was albeit short, but most fulfilling nonetheless and i would kill to have it again. take good care of yourself over there since you're gonna be on your own; wish i could be there too but reality strikes harshly. and i am
not looking forward to receiving any beanie babies in my mail, not for the next 4 years xP
i have but one word for you to remember constantly:
resolve
that is all i ask of you, in return for everything i've done for you.
be good and study hard, dear. call me soon k? <3 u lots
with that, my little dedication is over and any that i've left out, my sincere apologies. your time will come haha i sound like an assasin.
red weary teary eyes adorn my eyebagged face now and my bed beckons.
